Something shocked me like hell. Well, almost everything shocks me anyway. But this one's kind of different.

I thought about telling it to my mom and so I did what I thought would be best. I really cannot trust my impulse when it gets that bad.

Seriously, I have nothing against that person. I mean, I talk to her like nothing's happened. And no, I'm not being plastic or anything close to that. I'm acting normally. I don't want to let it get the best of me. I think that the feeling I've developed was because of what she did and not because of who she is.

Actually, I'm happy that she's with us already. I mean, she deserves it anyway. But I do hope against hope that she wouldn't use the thing-that-I-couldn't-mention-for-some-important-reason in that specific project-slash-opportunity.

I think what triggered the hatred I felt before was the fact that I could almost see myself in her. I know I'm not that pretty and talented like her, but what she did hinted me to compare. I know I shouldn't because it would get the best of me. But that's what happened and I couldn't turn my back against it.

I just hope that I could get this over with. I mean, what do I get from it? It just makes me hate the person more which is totally unreasonable 'cause I am guilty of the same thing. Darn, I have to get a grip. :|

Sorry for the sudden.. slip out. The words just came out of me and then I had to blog about it.

*FYI, this is clearly not about Twilight. Oooops, it slipped out again. :| Sorry. And I don't think anybody would understand what I'm saying. =))


Anyway, forget about what's typed above the three asterisks. Honestly, I think Twilight's better than New Moon. :)) But I think I still couldn't draw conclusions since I'm still not finished with the book. I barely halfway through it. :|

I think I'll change my layout. :)) It don't feel it. :)) Haha. I just wanted to try it out. :P