Went to Walter Mart to go grocery shopping. I never thought this sembreak could be more dull. :\ Darn.

Anyway, my mom bought me a new bag. :> I wanted to buy those kinds of bag last week but I just couldn't settle for it. I waited for other designs that would make me happy. :> LABO. =)))

I badly want to post pictures but I don't have my camera. Ugh.

NOTE TO SELF THIS COMING YEAR: BUY A NEW CANON CAMERA.

Oo, kelangan Canon. =)) Ganda naman kasi ng timing. Kung kelan bakasyon, chka nasira. :\

It's funny how people with dSLRs make me angry and miffed and.. jealous. =)) Wala lang. Nakakainis. Kasi sila, may camera. =))))))) Bitterrr. Although we have one here, it's still my mom's. Ugh. Buy me a new cameraaaaa. :(

I really don't know what happened to my camera. I left it at home and when I got back, sira na. AYOS. :\

We're gonna watch another movie. We've watched Get Smart last night. I like Anne Hathaway. :)

I've finished nada. HAHA. I told my mom to read my work but we made fruit salad a while ago and I'm too tired, and lazy hahahaha, to do it now. :D

Byyyee!

Oh, wait. New URL! :) I've been thinking about it while washing the dishes. Haha! Strangely Deranged. :D

I couldn't drag myself to work on my Thesis whatev. I'm sitting here in front of this computer, typing an entry instead of my thesis. :\ I just want to read and color and draw and watch DVDs and... eat. :\ We've been watching tons of movies this break. So far, we've gone through a lot I can't remember anymore. :D Haha!

I'm fairly happy that we'd be having buckets of activities when we get back next week. I'm looking forward for the Intrams although I know I wouldn't do our section any good. Hello, suongan kasi ako. Plus Gelli, Natalie.. :)) Panalo na kami. =))))

We'll be having our OJE, too. I'm really excited 'cause we're headed for something new. :> It's on a Saturday, though. But it's okay. :)

We're going to have our Outbound at Mt. Banahaw this month, too. I think it's on the 19th. :)

But before everything else, I'd have to work on my requirements. I'd still have to make the props for our Music Presentation - which I haven't started yet. :\ I am so dead. My mom's gonna kill me for dawdling and slacking off. Forgive me, but it's the sembreak, for heaven's sake. We should be resting. :(

I guess I'd rather work on it days before the time needed so as to ensure that there wouldn't be any change of plans. I even forgot about the props I'd be doing.

Must work, must work, must work..

I'll finish English now and work on the Music stuff. Costume's not a problem except if you're to draw it. :\ Darn. Uggggh. I better work on English now.

Bye!

Been to SM North Edsa today. I wore my Tita's gift, a black shirt that is clearly large for me. Naturally, I love it. :) I hate wearing tight-fitted shirts anyway. I want loose, big shirts. =)) Weird.

As for my title, I was miffed at this person who serves drinks when we ate dinner at Mang Inasal. I was reading Rebel Angels, as usual, when he served the drinks. I know it was wrong to read while eating, but he could've been more careful. Thank God the damage wasn't that big. Natalsikan lang. =))) Eh pero naman, medyo buong page kasi yun eh. Medyo lang.

I'll be sipping Orbitz Cookies and Cream Overload in a bit. I don't know what we'll be watching but I sure hope it's good.

I promised to do my homeworks on the weekend, which is yesterday and today, and ended up doing nothing. :\ For heaven's sake, it's Christmas break! Couldn't they give us assignments at another time? :\

I'm done with my Eco assignment which leaves me down to the English Thesis and Inferno reading and Pinoy's Movie whatever. I'll be giving my mom the list of the movies we'll be analyzing so that she could hunt them down. >:) Labo. =))

Oh! I saw Bueno at The Block a while ago. They were to watch Tanging Ina. :)) Funny. I missed her, really. And Krizia, too!

TRIVIA:
Alam niyo bang ang last load ko sa cellphone ay nung Retreat pa? :)) At alam niyo bang ang Retreat na yun ay isang buwan nanag nakalipas? :)))) Bulok my phoooone. :>

I want a new decent camera. :( THe old one doesn't want to function anymore. I'll have my mom buy one for meeee. :> HAHA, KURIPOOOOT. =))) Joke. Syempre may pera rin ako dun. Haha!

Bye!

PS. New Layout, New Year! :) I'll be changing my URL in a couple of days. I'll think of a neat one, first! :D

I made drawings with, um, letterings, too! I'll post them as soon as I snap a picture of it. :)

Currently reading Rebel Angels by Libba Bray. The second of the trilogy. I've just finished reading the first one, A Great and Terrible Beauty, last last night. :)

I've got nothing to blog about, really. Just the egg part. :P

Oh!

I almost forgot to tell you that last Monday and Tuesday, we didn't have the Internet connection, there was no dial tone on our phone, and the cable's off. Great, huh? So much for Christmas.

Fast forward..

NOW.

We've got to eat! :D

I don't know what the nutcrap's wrong with me, but I just can't feel Christmas.

Remember how we always celebrate Christmas Eve with Lanuza Family? How we get things ready for our annual Christmas program, prepared by me and my cousins. How we would get caught up and practice for our presentations which our parents would laugh about. It wasn't the same Christmas Eve as it was before. I've no stinking idea why I feel that way.

I really couldn't blame on the changfe of venues. Usually, as in the past years, we spend it at my grandmother's house since we live close to each other:

But when my cousins moved to a new house, it's as if the Christmas spirit within each of us has dimmed. Our amazing helper, Ate Luz, wasn't able to be with us last night. That was the first Christmas that she wasn't with us. :\ I missed her, you know. She used to tease me whenever a only eat a little amount of food. I think I'm developing anorxia already. Seriously. Wait, we'll get on to that in a minute.

I know I'm being whatever, but I can't help it. I just don't know what's wrong with me. Or with.. whatever.

Ugh. whatever.

My brother asked my dad to briong us to Tandang Sora, my cousin's new home, to have time for us to practice and get ready for our program. We got there at 1pm which left us almost 5 hours to practice and get on with it.

Pam and I practically watched iCarly on her laptop and ate Crunch. We surfed the net and laughed about stuff posted on Youtube. It was pretty amazing, having spent it with her which I find annoyingly mean. But it was fun, I have to admit it.

Ninang Alma came here from GenSan to celebreate Christmas with us. And I actually felt bad when she told me that "Gusto ko yung katawan mo ngayon. May laman na." I don't know, but I.. :\ Whateverrrr. I guess I really gained weight. Grabe, hindi umepekto yung senior year sakin. :\ Diba dapat papayat ako lalo? :\

We had our presentations after waiting for Tita Pat and Uncle Joey to arrive. Medyo kasi paallis palang sila sa bahay nila ng mga 6pm. Eh medyo 6pm kasi kailangan nandun. :\ But ohwell.

After arguing with my cousins that we can't have our usual program with what time we have left, we performed and watched the video. I actually watched myself. Pramis, tumaba talaga ako. My lolo and my ninang were right. I guess my mom and dad would've had the same comment but refused to tell me 'cause they know I'll stop eating. I guess they're my parents after all. Haha.

Now I just have to get my thin body back. HAHAHA LABO. :)) Pero swear, tumaba talaga ako. :)

This might get um, mushy? =))) Read at your own risk. Actually, I didn't mean it to be mushy. HAHA. Carried awaaaay. =))))

Another thing occurred to me while we were watching the videos my uncle took during the House Blessing and the presentations. My mom lent me her Cybershot camera for me to use at the moment since my cam's worn out. I was browsing through the pictures only to find this:

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I know it's not a big deal.. until you see this:

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The first photo was taken during my brother's 11th birthday. That was how my dad looked like. Now, he looked like the person on the second photo.

This got me crying on Christmas Eve.

I don't know if I'm just stupid or unobservant [but believe me, I AM observant. Ask Stella and Krizia], but I couldn't help asking myself,

"Asan ako the whole time? I mean, I could've noticed the friggin' difference."

People, especially my dad's highschool and college friends, would tell him he'd lost too much weight. All I ever did was to say, "Oo nga eh", all because his legs and arms got thinner, much like mine. But I didn't see his face. Stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

When I really couldn't help crying, I went to my room and argued with myself. I've been too engrossed and obsessed with schoolwork, projects, and who-knows-what that I couldn't even take a second's rest and ask him, "Okay ka lang?". I guess Stella and Krizia know this. We don't usually talk here at home 'cause I'm afraid of him. Afreaid of getting scolded and making the wrong moves.

But now that Yaki and Ika came, I've never been more grateful and proud. Whenever we meet someone with dogs who converses with my dad, he would always say, "Yan nga lang maaasahan ko dun sa mga aso eh.", or something like that. =)) Duh, memory, remember? :))

Remember my posts about how my dad talks me in to cars and all that crap about college.. and cars? :)) It's the only time we really talk. As in talk. And that one time, when I was approached by that creepy guy at Mcdo Retiro? :\ I cried because that was the only time I felt his presence. That he cared for me. I mostly talk about those stuff to my mom. :P

Okay, time's up. It's over. :))) You can read now.

I guess things change. Now, I can only imagine things that would certainly appease him. And everytime I try to attempt to do one good thing, it just ends up the other way around. Kaya.. wag na. =)) Joke.

I woke up at 11am this morning after having slept at 2am. It still felt nice to sleep but I badly wanted to read. :)) Yeah, one good way to spend Christmas: READ. =)))

I helped my dad wash our dogs just before my mom and grandparents came. They're currently eating right now. And you've guessed it right. I won't be eating any sooner. :)) Unless.. :> HAHA, LABO.

*I'll post the pictures later. My brother's got his hands all over the PC right now, where the pictures are. :\ Screw-Christmas-gifts-involving-brothers-having-the-permission-to-use-the-computer-
when-they're-not-supposed-to-'cause-it's-his-punishment-for-not-studying-hard. :\

Was too lazy to blog yesterday so I changed my layout once more. I wasn't contented with the first one anyway. :P

We went to TriNoma yesterday. Bought gifts and stuff, mostly for myself and my mom :)), and looked around. We visited Diego to buy the cuffs my mom promised me. After paying, my mom told me that the salesguy asked her, "Nagbabanda po ba siya?". Hilarious. Naman, mukha ba kong nagbabanda? =))))

It's a compliment, I guess. I did know a little on guitar-playing since I took lessons last last summer. Pero nakakatawa lang. 'Cause this was what I looked like: "Kill the Boredom" brown fitted shirt, my bro's capri shorts-that-didn't-fit-him-anymore, black & white slippers, and tons of accessories. :)))) I wore my silver bracelet-like watch with black thin cuffs on my left arm, & large brown cuffs with roses printed on it plus a wooden bracelet on the right.

I had to say it 'cause I'm too lazy to upload pictures, and well, my cam's broken, remember? :\ And speaking of cameras, we looked around the cameras available in TriNoma. I wish they'd buy me one. :( But I'm still hoping that my camera now would go back to the way it should function. :\ Sana phone ko nalang yung nasira. I don't really use it anyway. Diba? =)))

We spent almost five hours looking for gifts but ended u p buying stuff for ourselves. :)) My mom bought me, kasi ayoko gumastos. :)), two silver star rings from PRP, the huge black cuffs from Diego, and some artsy-fartsy stuff from Simplejoys.

Oh, have you seen their branch at Tri? Grabe, ang laki. =))))) Hahahaha.

I missed blogging. :> I guess I'd be back after Christmas. We still have to wrap gifts and I would want to finish reading Impossible before the vacation ends. :P I'd still have to do schoolwork. :| Dang.

Eff. ERASE THAT LAST PART. We're supposed to be resting, for crying out loud. Tas tambak nanaman. :\

Anyway, Happy Holidays! :D

New Laaayout. :) And I'm back from the shizzle. =)) Haha.

Exam's are over and I've screwed each one of 'em. As in umuuwi akong laging galit sa mundo kasi may katangahan akong nagawa. :\ Whatthehell.

My camera's.. not working the way it should be. :\ Great. How am I supposed to take pictures when it goes black once you click and snap a shot? :| Darn. Sana may mag-regalo sakin ng digicam. =)))) Hahaha. Galante. :)))

I left my KrisKringleGift for Mariza. :\ I had to trade it with my gift for Cel [SORRY. Pramis, sa January]. But nontheless, I'll give the gift to her when we see each other again. :D

I've got nothing to say. :\ I hope it rains. :D It's sooo cold, I'm freezing, really. But uh, it'll be colder when it rains. So.. yeah, I'll take that back. :D

.. how I always check my mail for homework and not for nonsensical updates about how teenage life souold be lived.

.. how I'm afraid of signing in my Multiply account 'cause I know for a fact that if I did, I'd use up all my time and end up doing nothing productive.

.. how I would schedule everything I'm supposed to do for the weekend - homeworks, projects, study time - and for reading, resting and sleeping.

.. how our weekends turn to weekdays, sembreaks into weekends and spare time into nothing but an opportunity to breathe a sigh of relief.

.. how our lives revolve on homework, school projects and all that stuff.



'Cause if you screw up, just one teeny-tiny second, everything won't be the same.



I'll do it, anyway. So why wait for later? :)) Bbye! I'll post again if.. there would be things worth blogging for. :D

This day has been.. great. :)

I'll make this quick. I'll be reading Breaking Dawn in a few minutes..
And because my brother's agitated to use the computer. :|

I've finally found IT. :) Thank you, dear Internet. You work in.. um, weird ways. =))) I mean, sometimes I wish it wasn't invented 'cause we've been pestered by ehem, homeworks. But it's okay, really. And now, I would eat my words and tell the world (wide web =))) joke) that I love thy Internet. :)))

I know I'm not making sense here. :))) You don't have to understand it anyway. =))

Aaand..
Happy Birthday, Stella! :) You know I love you. >:D<

I've been hunting for pictures of Kristen Stewart since I've watched Twilight. My being possessive's taken over me again. :\ I even remember writing an entry about her a long time ago. Check it out.

Alam mo yung feeling na gusto mo ikaw lang yung may gusto sa kanya [not in a bi kind of way]. Yung gusto mo ... basta. Get? :)) I can't say I saw and liked her first when she starred in Panic Room 'cause she's not mine. Get? Basta yun.

This is why I don't want my favorite actresses/actors to be that popular. Popular in the sense that everybody likes them.

Okay, so I'm addicted. She's too pretty, right? I mean, ugh. Whatever. Words won't ever level up to her beauty. =)) K, it doesn't make sense anymore. HAHAHA.


Link and liiiiink. :)

I love herrr. :)