I felt lightheaded when I woke up. My mind was even made up that I'd finish Twilight this morning. Just that. For the whole day.

And then I remembered something: it was Friday.

And yes, Friday means Kumon. :\ And it was why I've dreaded Friday eversince. I even remembered the payment and stuff. I've stayed up last night finishing the last worksheets and gave up. I started reading Twilight and slept.

I went downstairs and finished reading Twilight. They told me that the Kumon teacher called in to inform us that they'd only be open till 4:00pm. My dad asked me if I were to continue having Kumon. It was perfectly normal. Only this time, I didn't feel the slightest tinge of weariness or whatever. I felt nothing.

I went to the kitchen to get a pack of mini Oreos and a banana. I took my book & I ate while I read. It still didn't dawn on me that I am to make the gravest decision.

If I were to stop Kumon or not.

I used the computer for a while. I ran through my accounts and stopped dead when I remembered Physics. The thought of it gives me the creeps, really. It's as if all the happiness in the world's gone in an instant. K, dementor kasi. :)) But really, it feels that way.

I stalled for a while, checking others' Multiply sites and blogs. I knew for a fact that once I opened my email, I would feel sullen. And it did.

I read RDK's looooong love letter. :)) It made me feel that I couldn't enjoy the last three days of our sembreak anymore. That I wouldn't be able to scan through the pages of New Moon. That I'd be deprived of the comfort of the internet.

And that made up my mind. I guess my pride kept me hanging when I knew I couldn't help it anymore. That even if I try to ease the pain, to continue, it wouldn't be worth it.

I'm quitting Kumon.

No, quitting's not the right term. Stopping.

I've been in this road before. And I've never felt sure, decided even, of what I was about to do. Ever.

So yes, this post is an offering, a testament, to what I'm about to do.

Farewell, dear Kumon. You've been of great help to me for the past years. I would truly bring those memories to my grave. That's how much I love you. ♥

I've been procrastinating and slacking off these past few days. Yeah, I know it doesn't sound right 'cause it's the effin' sembreak, but WTH? They flooded us with buckets of effin' workload. :|

I haven't finished anything yet. And eventhough I would want to, I can't. My hands are itching for the remote, a good book, the mouse -- yeah, you get the point. I just wanna get my hands off of schoolwork. :\ Dang.

It rained hard last night. I even woke up because of the thunder. :)) And I even thought of Twilight. Sabi ko pa, Siguro ganito sa Forks. =)))))) K, HAHAHA.

I think I'll finish Pinoy and Physics today. Then I'll do Kumon tomorrow. And start exploring the web for a good program for our Music Video. :D

Gotta go! :) I'll update this as often as possible. ;)



Oops, congrats, IV4 & IV5! :> I forgot to include you in my previous entry. :P

It's been hella loooong since I sat in front of the computer. Been too busy finishing the costumes and props and stuff. Yeah, we didn't win but it was all worth it. :) LOVEYOU, IV3! :D

But.. I'm still bitter. =)))))) Not because we didn't win. But because of the costumes. :)) Damnit, nevermind. I kept on repeating this to people for a whole week now. Don't wanna blind you with what I'll type, too.

My dad fetched me at 7pm. :| So much for fun. Thank you, Stella, Krizia and Isabel! :> I had fun, really.


Just got home from UST. Took the effin' long entrance exam. Plus the drawing test. :\

We've got tons of stuff on our shoulders. And I don't wanna think about it. :)))) Kbye.


Shit, this is such a lame post. I'll get my mind straight and re-type this.


Off to read Twilight. Re-read, I mean. Enjoy your sembreak. :)

I'm irritated. I want to help but I can't. People need me to be there and I can't be there for them. Ugh.




I feel that tomorrow's gonna be suckish. I can feel it now.

Today was fun. Mass in the morning & PALIHAN 'til 2:30pm. Tomorrow's gonna be.. eff. No supervised practices plus the crappy schedule. Forgive me. I just hate Thursday scheds.

Sir Geom and Ms. Villavert made my day. :)) They sang and danced while we were practicing for our trip to Pampanga on Saturday.


Sir Geom: Ayan, sige. 1, 2, 3, 4.. *kanta*
Seniors: =))))))

Medyo kasi pwedeng "1, 2, 3 GO" eh. =))

Sir Geom: Math teacher eh! =)) Ano ba yan, lumalabas yung pagka-Math teacher ko eh.

I can really feel that I'll fail Eco. I effin' used the wrong value for the computation and analysis after the graph during the exam. UGH. :|

Whatever. I'll change my layout! :> Maybe later. Or tomorrow. :))

Lame post. School's eating me up. I can't focus on the brighter things in life. :))))) Whatev.


*The title has nothing to do with the post. :)



P.S. FORGOT TONS OF THINGS.
Okay, now it's related with the title. =))

It's funny how people react to events, things, especially people. From the past. =)) I was really amused at my former and current classmates' [II1 & IV3] reactions when the video of the seniors last year was shown. :)) Sobrang nakakatawa lang. Na ako pa yung naalala nila nung nakita nila yun. =))) K, babaw eh.

Ew, bumabalik. =)))))))

Whatev. Di kailangan. =))))


K. Kumon time. :))) Gotta gooo.

I had a blast. I swear. Maybe all these bruises would be worth it. Worth everything.

And mind you, I have bruises all over me. =))) Di ko alam kung san galing yung iba. :))

I can't believe I still couldn't find a stinkin' way to not cry. Yes, I cried again. I WANT IT TO STOP. The crying, I mean.

Maggie, Patbau, Aves, Dors, Min, Inah, Dhanika and I stayed at Mcdo Retiro. Patbau, Inah and Dhanika went home first. Then Aves followed. I told Min, Dors and Marge to head home as well 'cause they kinda need to. So they did. And the creepy thing happened.

I finished my Kumon and sat at the table nearest the door. Then this man approached me and asked me if I had anyone with me. And stupid me said no. Shitty. Then he sat down on the seat across me and asked me stuff. Then I headed outside since I was really creeped out. And double stupidity. It's more dangerous to wait outside Mcdo. Duh. I waited. And waited. Until my parents came.

I tried to stop crying. And since I was seated at the back part of the car, they didn't see me cry. Then we headed for Kumon, then Crossings. We ate dinner and yeah. Eto na.

I really tend to cry whenever it's my dad who talks to me. As in yung masinsinan na heart to heart. =)) K, natawa pa eh no. =))) Pero alam mo yun? I guess I didn't know that he could be as caring as my mom. And we weren't that close. Well, compared to my mom, that is.

I love my dad to death. I mean, I know he's always mad at stuff but he's nice in a way, too. And those are the times I love him even more.

I cried. Again. :| In public. Sobrang di ko na kaya. Ugh. Turuan nyo nga akong magpigil ng luha! Leche.

I had fun. I swear. Minus the creepy thing. Or maybe.. whatever.

WAIT! I remembered these girls while I was doing my Friday Routine aka Head-for-the-second-floor-and-stare-at-the-books-'cause-you-don't-have-money-tobuy-them. And then these girls literally ran to the shelf. I was on the opposite side. And you can just imagine the force imparted on the shelf by the girls bouncing at me. =))

GIRL: OMG OMG OMG! BREAKING DAAAWN! OMG OMG, HARDBOOOOUND!

She was literally screaming. :)) Or basta sobrang lakas lang talga ng boses nya. =))) Deym. Ngayon ko lang narerealize na sobrang overrated na ng Twilight Saga. :| =))) And to think that I was planning on re-reading it this weekend. So much for that. :|

Oh! And bakit pag hardbound ka, lagi kang walang synopsis sa likod? :| Puro book reviews lang. :| Minsan meron, pero get? :|

Ito pa pala! =)) May pahabol pa sya eh. :)) Kasi may nakita atang magazine, tas sabi nya, "OMG OMG KELANGAN KO TO. Andito yung Jonas Brothers." With the "Aww. :(" Tone. =))

Sobrang benta sakin, shit. =)) I've nothing against them. Natatawa lang ako dun sa girl. =)))

Thank you, dear. You made me laugh. =)))))))



Enjoy your 4-day weekend, guys! :)

.. it doesn't.

So much for our long weekend after hell week. It's already loaded with requirements and stuff. HELLOOO, WE NEED TO BREATHE A LITTLE.

Exams are over. And I don't wanna talk about school anymore. Or maybe I don't have a choice 'cause that's what we live for every stinkin' day.

I'm changing my layout while typing this entry. :)) It doesn't seem to come out right. Or maybe it's supposed to not come out the way I want it to. Ugh, whatever.

I'll upload pictures later. Overdue pictures, that is. :D

RINA MACARAIG. I'll do the tag thing later, okay? :D

Currently on Panic Mode. I haven't finished anything yet. I've memorized my lines for tomorrow's Sagutang Diyalogo. I haven't studied for the Physics LT. I effin' slept last night when I'm supposed to be working on my Computer Proj. I can't understand the gospel reading for our reflection. I haven't done anything for the belen-making whatever. Uuuugh. I'm panicking. Eff. I hate it.

I wanna start working on these. Actually, I did. Pero alam mo yuuuun? :|

I hope it rains hard tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. Long weekend. :)) K, joke. Hay. We all need a break.

Oooops. Exam's are up next week. Ayosss. Just what we need. :|


Eff hell year.